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Published: Oct 15, 2013

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I kiss you hello, get out

new snapshots and knitting,

then fifteen, twenty

endless minutes, gridlocked.

Tucking things away,

again I kiss you.

I leave the home, escaping

here and now.

That last time, I couldn't

stomach his odor; I never did

kiss him goodbye.

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